Feeding on my Obsession and Neuroticism...
I'm a giant loser cause I went out and spent full price at HMV for the soundtrack to Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants (see previous blog). I knew it was good from the movie and although could've been cheaper if bought online, I just couldn't wait. I paid cash and threw away the receipt at the nearest trash receptacle to eliminate any opportunity for a refund or second guessing. I've been listening to it non-stop ever since - at work on my PC and in the car on the way to and from work. Am I sick of the 12 tracks yet? NO. 10 tracks are in the actual move and 2 are bonus tracks...probably inspired by the movie, but they do seem to fit right in so they very well could've been inspired.
But seriously, the pants are magical. They are working on me. I was doing some negative self-talk in the car today regarding my future job prospects and pending decision making and felt very deflated. So I put on track 2 - Natasha Beddingfield, Unwritten - and repeated it 5 times. I mean, the song was a good one before but now, it flat out inspires me. I listened to the lyrics, sang along in the 10 minute car ride up the street and by the end of my journey, felt like I could conquer the world and felt there was so much excitement ahead of me, as uncertain as it may be, it is mine to take and mine to experience and mine to enjoy. The future is unwritten and I can help write darn right exciting chapters in my life and the song reminded me of the confidence that I do have inside myself but had temporarily lost under a pile of dirty clothes to kick ass in this world. I am S.M.R.T. I can do it. I want to be in the sisterhood...it's not just for 16yr old girls. There is coming-of-age at all stages in life and I'm going through one now. We all need those pants.
And besides, wanting to fit into the pants, although magically conforming, will also motivate me to continue exercising and challenging my body to get every last endorphin it can. It's not about losing weight. It's about pushing my body and mind to see what it can do, and being healthy enough to kick ass in the world. If my legs are weak, I won't be able to kick down any doors or stubborn jerks...So bring on the lunges and squats!
Wow, that was a rant.
But seriously, the pants are magical. They are working on me. I was doing some negative self-talk in the car today regarding my future job prospects and pending decision making and felt very deflated. So I put on track 2 - Natasha Beddingfield, Unwritten - and repeated it 5 times. I mean, the song was a good one before but now, it flat out inspires me. I listened to the lyrics, sang along in the 10 minute car ride up the street and by the end of my journey, felt like I could conquer the world and felt there was so much excitement ahead of me, as uncertain as it may be, it is mine to take and mine to experience and mine to enjoy. The future is unwritten and I can help write darn right exciting chapters in my life and the song reminded me of the confidence that I do have inside myself but had temporarily lost under a pile of dirty clothes to kick ass in this world. I am S.M.R.T. I can do it. I want to be in the sisterhood...it's not just for 16yr old girls. There is coming-of-age at all stages in life and I'm going through one now. We all need those pants.
And besides, wanting to fit into the pants, although magically conforming, will also motivate me to continue exercising and challenging my body to get every last endorphin it can. It's not about losing weight. It's about pushing my body and mind to see what it can do, and being healthy enough to kick ass in the world. If my legs are weak, I won't be able to kick down any doors or stubborn jerks...So bring on the lunges and squats!
Wow, that was a rant.
posted by glor at 11:49 p.m.
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